Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Money Hungry

I admit it.

I want money.

And in my quest for money, I'm asking myself why, of all the careers out there, I had to choose the poorest one. The one that, right now, is having a huge upheaval and is unstable. Talk about the blind leading the blind...one financially unstable industry trying to help a (currently) financially unstable individual.

While I don't ask for much in the way of money, I do ask for enough to pay my bills. Right now, I don't have that.

So I'm asking/telling myself: this isn't necessarily just a job to me. It's a calling. And a calling means that it's God-ordained. So at this point in my life when people are yelling at me to give them money and I don't have it, I need to appeal to the One who is taking care of me.

That's the long and the short of it.

God sees my bank account.


The Logarithmic Spiral said...

I know this feeling all too well. Hang in there, my friend! It does and will get better.
I find that financial stress is one of the worst stresses out there and also one of the most character building experiences. It teaches to rely on God comPLETEly and to pray, pray, pray...yes, even pray for money.

I remember I did that one day in the shower knowing that my gas needle was pointing at E and I had absolutely no money to fill up. Yeah, definitely received a $100 check from a man I work with for typing something up for him that day. This was when gas was close to $4/gallon and it took me roughly $70 to fill up my tank. The extra $30? Yeah, I used that for groceries because I hadn't eaten anything for 2.5 days.

Call me soon...we definitely need a chat soon. Love you!!

Mary Zolene said...

Knowing that we were raised in the same house- by the same people- can I just comment that the desire to have enough money for your needs does NOT translate to money hungry.
Someone told me recently that on a scale of 1 to 10 with 10 being too concerned about money they would label me a 6. Personally, that sounds like a very healthy number to me!
Money has been such a struggle for me- knowing what my attitude towards it should be. What the proper balance of having, not having, wanting, not wanting should be.
Although we both hoped our education would translate into a calling. There is nothing wrong with also using both our education and calling to create the kind of lifestyle we desire, and provide for our needs.
To that end- I am going to pray that God provides for ALL your needs and desires!
Love you!