I admit it.
I want money.
And in my quest for money, I'm asking myself why, of all the careers out there, I had to choose the poorest one. The one that, right now, is having a huge upheaval and is unstable. Talk about the blind leading the blind...one financially unstable industry trying to help a (currently) financially unstable individual.
While I don't ask for much in the way of money, I do ask for enough to pay my bills. Right now, I don't have that.
So I'm asking/telling myself: this isn't necessarily just a job to me. It's a calling. And a calling means that it's God-ordained. So at this point in my life when people are yelling at me to give them money and I don't have it, I need to appeal to the One who is taking care of me.
That's the long and the short of it.
God sees my bank account.