Do you trust me?
Yes. Yes, I do.
"You cannot produce trust just like you cannot 'do' humility. It either is or is not. Trust is the fruit of a relationship in which you know you are loved." - The Shack
(EDIT TO ADD: Last night during prayer, I shared about the journey of trust I've been going through and one of my dear friends, Rachel, recited the above quote from The Shack. I knew this morning that I wanted to add it to my blog but I didn't know where in the book the quote was located. My mom was talking to Rachel on the phone and I told her I needed to talk to Rachel when she was done...to ask her about the quote. In the meantime, I prayed:
"Lord, show me where the quote is." There's 253 pages in the book - trying to find it on my own in a timely fashion was going to be impossible.
Immediately, my mind was enundated with thoughts like, "do you really think he can tell you where the quote is?", "what if he doesn't tell you? what does that mean?"
"No, I believe He can. " I mean, He IS orchestrating my life. Surely He knows where a quote is in a book.
Friends, He does.
I flipped to page 125 and saw that Mack was having a conversation with Sarayu/Papa about the fact that Mack didn't think God was good because he didn't trust. I kept reading the conversation.
"The real underlying flaw in your life is that you don't think that I am good. If you knew I was good and that everything - the means, the ends, and all the processes of individual lives - is all covered by my goodness, then while you might not always understand what I am doing, you would trust me. But you don't."
I kept reading the conversation, which flipped over onto page 126 and there it was:
"You cannot produce trust just like you cannot 'do' humility. It either is or is not. Trust is the fruit of a relationship in which you know you are loved."
Yes, yes I do. I trust.)