Wednesday, December 15, 2010

I want to run away

A friend texted me this morning, "U ok? Haven't heard from you in awhile."

Things I Should Say:
"Oh yeah, I'm great. Life is peachy. How are you?"

Things I Want to Say:
"Life sucks right now and if I could go back and change the decisions of some people and how they've affected me recently, I would."

Things No One But Me Should Ever Know About:
"Do you ever feel like life has reached an unwarranted level of insanity and the only solution is packing your bags and finding a dark room somewhere where the sleep and strong drinks are endless and maybe, if you're lucky, someone's there to hold you all night long or not, depending on what you want?"

Despite the title which suggests that perhaps these are Things No One But Me Should Ever Know About, that's how I'm doing.

My heart is only brave for so long and then sometimes it just needs to hide.


randy said...

Hey Holly. If I can help, let me know.

Christina said...

I love you for this post and so many other tiny and big and small and gargantuan things. And I love you because you know exactly what I'm talking about in that sentence.