it's on hold

Sometimes the stars don't align for reasons only they know, and the only thing you can do is roll with it.

So I'm rolling with it.

The diet is off for now. Well, at lease the HCG part of it. For now. I can't say that my current health state is a direct result of the HCG, but I don't think it's helping to put my body under the rigors of the diet while we apparently have...issues...to work through.

It started on Friday when I stood up from my desk and felt like I'd run a marathon. I could hardly get my legs to move. It felt like I was dragging them behind me, and starting at my knees, they felt like Jell-o. Wobbly and uncertain.

Yesterday was a very bad day for me. My legs still, disorientation, nausea, the extreme feeling that I might faint and the desire to so I could escape from the feeling that my body was trying to kill me from the inside out. I have these days where it feels like every element of my body systems are fighting against me. Or maybe I'm fighting against them. I tried to get through a conference yesterday but had to leave early. That's unlike me, to quit anything for the sake of health, but I knew I had to.

So I came home and slept. A lot. I feel better, but my legs still don't want to hold me up, my brain feels fuzzy and my eyes feel like I'm looking through murky water.

I'll feel better soon. I just need to listen to my body and try to figure out what it's telling me. That's the hard part sometimes.