Sunday, December 18, 2011

weight comparison and my shallow PoV

I've been going back and checking myself out from a few years ago, thanks to Facebook.

Funny thing is, these photos weren't taken that long ago - two years, in fact.

And then this is the one taken Saturday. Thank goodness.

When I talk about weight, weight loss and the journey to get there, it is, in fact, a JOURNEY. It's one foot in front of the other, one small step at a time.

I texted my sister yesterday and the reason I'm sharing it because it exemplifies how quickly weight can become a problem without you or the people around you recognizing it.

"Do you realize how fat I was?"

"Yes, I do. I'm sorry I didn't say anything."

"Oh wow, I wasn't expecting that. Ummmm....I'm just not sure why I didn't realize it. I think it's an indicator of where I was mentally and emotionally at the time."

"Oh for sure, and honestly I never saw you as fat...which is weird..."

"I know what you mean! It sounds mean, but..." and then I say something rude about myself...

"How horrible!!!"

"I know. I just apologized to myself."

"OK good. But ya, I didn't realize it was so bad...I guess your personality made up for it."

"It is charming."

"At times."

"Whoa, easy there."

Everyone around me is sworn to sound the alarm if I start gaining weight again.


The Logarithmic Spiral said...

I know what you mean. Though there are people who would get really pissed at me if I said this, I feel like I have always struggled with my weight. And I say that knowing that I've never been obese by any stretch of the imagination, but I have definitely carried more weight around than was healthy at times. And while I am (almost) happy with my body now, it is something that I feel like I will have to work on my whole life.
BUT! I just (finally!) started the detox diet I've been wanting to do for months and I've already lost 2.5lbs since Sunday night! I know they say that rapid weight loss isn't healthy, but when you have a lot of unnecessary luggage you're pulling around, I find that it sheds off pretty quick. We should def. Skype soon and talk all about it :)

randyalan said...

You look great, Holly. Very proud of you.